I told myself that maybe I am best for marriage. Best at giving love to husband and children; or I should find a busy job and live in the city with my parents. What is the meaning of my life? When my new life just start, I feel died already.
I got flower from Santa on Xmas night. I keep it well, the flowers are all opening now. I can taste the sweets of them. Panashie likes them too. She tried to eat them up, and I had to woke up during the night and stopped her.
Tomorrow is the last day of 2005. Woo...