But after visit Victoria's Secret last week, I am not sure anymore.
I haven't buy anything from V.S for few years, and decided to go there to find a bra which has a nice back for my chiffon shirt. Lucky, V.S was having their semi sales. I found few bras of my size 32 B and headed to the dressing room. The girl in charge of dressing room asked me if I need to be measured. I wasn't expecting any changes 'cause I have been 32 B since 2002, but I thought why not. So, she gave me the measurement and asked:" What size you have in there?" "32B." I answered. "Oh, No. You are a 32 C." She said. "Oh...really?" I didn't think my cup size has changed. "Try this sample bra. It is 32 C." The girl gave me a black basic bra. I put it on, and asked her to check for me 'cause I didn't believe that I am not a 32 B but a 32 C. "Oh! Look at your side. It didn't all get covered. You need a 32 D." She said. "WHAT?" I was surprised but also feel kind of happy. Hey, after all, bigger is better, right?
After I went home with few new 32 D bras, I put out all my bras from home and tried them all on. Why I didn't see this? None of my old bras fit me. The side of my girls were coming out and I thought it was because my bras were getting old. How come my girls get bigger? Am I getting fatter? Or my girls are losing the fight with gravity? Does that mean I am losing my muscle tones? AM I GETTING OLD!!!!??? Eew...the thing woman does to drive ourselves crazy.
I looked at myself in the mirror: yeah...older than I'd like to be. And,I know my old style isn't good for me anymore (Say goodbye long ago to "hip-hop"). My body is changing too. I can't wear whatever I want anymore, but I don't want to wear grandma panties and mom jeans. Just the thought of grandma panties made me took out all my panties and throw out the "grandmalish" ones. I have to say that after I was 30 years old. I started to want dress more comfortable than fashionable. I let myself go a little bit. But I can't keep doing that anymore. It's time to keep upgrading myself. It's time to change my fashion habit.
Maybe I will buy less from Forever 21 from now on (doesn't mean I will go there less). Maybe I need to find my new favored store (No Banana or J.Crew). But I do know that I have been searching for my own style for a while, and I have been trying different styles for few years. Now, I think I know what my style is. What style make me happy and feel beautiful: Feminine, Classic, Girl next door, Simple Sexy.
It's a process to change your fashion style, to find yourself, to know who you are and to not be influence by others (fashion pros, trend, much younger friends, your inner child, etc). But it can also be fun to re-discover yourself.
As you can see, I love fashion. Otherwise, I won't spend almost a hour to write this at 2 o'clock in the morning. I always try to improve myself in all the aspect of my life. Fashion is surely on the top of my list!