I started to think that I might have time management problem or I am just not disciplined enough to do what I need to do. Can life be simpler or should I be simpler?
Do I just simply want too much? I can't say that I didn't accomplish anything so far from my adult life, but I haven't accomplish enough yet. And, when I see other people accomplished one thing after another, I asked myself how did they do it? They seems to have a life as busy as mine or even busier, but they could do it. Why I haven't?
Have you had times that you start to doubt yourself and doubt the future or your dream? When everyone else seems to having it all but you are still at the same spot you were. Why I start to feel this isn't the only time I feel like this either? I am always slower than others and seems never could catch up.
I know I probably shouldn't be whiny, and should just pick myself up and go ahead. Comfortable life can't improve a person's life. Am I want too much or am I want too little?
And, what is being a wife means? Am I doing what a wife suppose to do? Make the house looks like picture perfect, cook health meals, dress husband well, have children, and being a woman has her own career? Maybe that is what I want to be, but not there yet.