PAIN PAIN. MY HEAD WAS PAIN YESTERDAY. PAIN. PAIN
Today's sunshie too strong... hurting my eyes.
This thanksgving was nice. I went to Orange for thanksgiving diner. Everybody had to bring something, so I cooked steam egg. Everyone liked it. Party was nice, but I felt stressed. Well, I always feel stressed.
I remember last thanksgiving. I went to party in Orange too and cooked Chinese food too. Toshi was there too.......
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It died. In Chinese saying, everything has its begining and its ending, inculde a chair, a TV or a bowl. My faoved bowl just reached his ending a day before yesterday. I was sad, honto. I have a lot of feelings for things that I like a lot. It might be really funny for you guys, but I cried when I saw him on the floor in three parts. I know it is kind of too much, but once I cried when I burned my favored towel.
I bought this bowl when I went to Boston last winter with Toshi. I like it a lot and used it for all my dinner. He was a good bowl. I didn't throw him away. I keep it in my room, maybe I can find someway to fix it.
GOOD BOWL, GOOD NIGHT.
I GET A PICTURE !!!
I get a picture of Foxy o.. Take me so long to get his picture. I always want to have a picture of him, but I always forget bring my camra with me. Fianlly, I remember and he was there waiting for me. I took couple pictures for him, but he turned his face away every time. This is the best that I got. Well. Foxy is cute... I am keep giving him food
I have to work hard in Soul Beat. I can't get some of the moves easily, but I do wanna be good at it. I know it takes time, but just wanna try my best for it.
I think I will wear something to portact my shoulder next time. It was ok before, but now it is kind of hurt if I touch.
Anyway, I am so so so tired now. Today's Soul Beat is the most tired one so far. I need to sleep soon
Winter is coming. Kafka sleeps much more than before. He wakes up sometimes, but goes back to sleep soon. I did't put any water in the tank because I think he doesn't need water and he doesn't wanna water either. Since, he doesn't move a lot, I just give him food once a while and he didn't even eat that much.
One night of this week, I dreamed about Kafka. Kafka was hang on a truncheon which above my head. He was moving around and tried to go down. I looked at him and he put his front feet on my head, above my eyes. I felt pain above my eyes, and I took look at Kafka, his nail was hurting me. It was so pain and I woke up because of it. After I woke up, I still can feel the pain. I felt strange about it, and went to website to check what does it means about dreaming Kafka. The website didn't say that much, and I forget about it soon later.
That afternoon, I came home and saw Kafka woke up. I gave some food to him, but he didn't eat. Then, I was thinking maybe he need water, so I got some water for him. While I put water in the tank, I saw a lot of small flies came out of the tank!!! I was spruised and took good look inside of the tank. Guess what I saw?? A lot of small molluscs!!!! I felt so sick!!! I took tank to cleaning up, and it took more than 30 mins. I think what happened is I thought the tank was dry, no water at all, but the fact is there was some water between the stones. And, I gave the food, but Kafka didn't eat, so all those food produced the molluscs.
Later that day, I remember the dream about Kafka. Oh, my god. Did Kafka try to tell me that he was in pain in my dream? So, he used his nail to hurting me? Well, I am happy that he told me by the dream before it is too late. But, it is still odd for me.
This is what I got from Soul Beat!!!
And, this is just a part of it. My others are on my shoulder, lower back and other places.
I wanna do good in Soul Beat. I never really did anything good, so I wanna try hard this time. Also, for my life too.
So, no matter how much hurts I will get from Soul Beat and the Life. I will keep going and going! Never give up o!!
I am honto crying Mon Chi chi now. I got a D for my last Japanese quiz, which made me so upset and disapointed at myself. But, Japanese class is getting harder and harder, that is for real. I know I didn't study as hard as before mid-term, which is really not good.
I am too emtional, so easy change my plan or life because of my emtion. I have to change that part of me too. It is hard, it is hard.
Well, I am still trying. Just like the song which we are using for soul beat " I try ": I try, I try, I try, you know I try....".
Nobody came to nail salon for there two days. Too COLD!! I only had 5 customers yesterday and 7 today. It is not good for me 'cause I can't make much money if there is nobody. But, I got time to study. I am re-studying Japanese. I kind of got left behind after mid-term, that I feel it is time for me to catch it up before it will be too late. I have to study hard for Japanese, that will be part of me in the furture, like English.
Last night, as everybody know, was so cold!!! So cold. I didn't wanna go out at all, so I stayed home, ate noodle for diner and sleep. This morning, I saw snow outside that I was suprised. It wasn't a lot, but still. Luckly, today is not that cold. Much better that yesterday. Oh, Panashie's hair got longer because of winter. So, she looks fatter than before which is good, looks cute.
Well, Panashie is not getting fat, but I am. I think I am. I dont' want be like last winter. I was fat last winter, so I control whatever I ate. I didn't ate any sweet after 8 pm or 9 pm. But, I still think I got fat a little bit. I can't do anything about it, I know it is because of the winter. The korean lady who works in the nail salon told me that when woman get older, their body change too. They are easlier to get fat and hard to lose the fat. Oh, my god. She is only 5 years older than me. I have to keep eyes on myself. I think I will try to work out more, be fit, be fit!!!
I went to Soul Beat today which I should go two times a week, but I haven't. I like to go Soul Beat for real, I am just so lazy sometimes or something came up.
From last week, Soul Beat became harder. We have to do some hard moves which Mai and I have problems to doing it. It is hard for girls, but we wanna try our best. So, we kept trying and trying. I got hurts all over my body, my necks, my shoulder, my back. So hurts. I am sure Mai feel hurts too.
However!!!! We will keep trying 'cause Soul Beat is a go!!! Go, go, go!!!
Anyway. I am tired becasue of Soul Beat. I have to go sleep now. Class tomorrow morning.
I am having a very bad hair day. I took a shower last night before I sleep as all other days. I use to take shower in the morning, but I don't have enough time these days. Besides, I style my hair everyday, so I don't have to care what my hair looks like in the morning after I wake up. However, I think I am wrong. My hair looks so bad this morning!! So bad!! No matter how I style it, it looks bad!!
I went to Japanese class with this hair, and I am going to my afternoon class soon. I think I will wear a hat or something to cover my hair. Maybe I should wash it in the morning again,but I might not have enough time ne... ...
Phone Call From LA
I got phone call from my high school friend who I met again in US and now in LA. He is going to Marine Corps tomorrow morning. He told me about it around 2 months ago, and I was surprised by his decision.
He is a very funny guy in a good way. The first time I met him when I was 16, and I found out that his birthday is 3-15, which is one day earlier than mine. We became nice friends, and then I came to US. After I came to US one year, he came too, and we became classmates again We didn't really hang out a lot, but every time we met, we would have great fun time. After two years in VA, he went to LA. We call each other sometimes, and keep our friendship good. He always sounded happy even the life of his wasn't that good. He didn't go school after went to LA and became full time waiter. We all know who hard it is being a waiter if you worked in US as waiter. He always, really, always sounds this life is beautiful.
Today, he called. I heard one sad sound from him, and I asked him what happened. He told me that he is going to Marine Corps tomorrow morning for 3 months. I heard the sadness from the cell. I care about him 'cause I don't know if he willl go to the war after 3 months or not if there will be a war. I don't wanna lose a friend like him.
I guess both of us didn't feel so happy. We kept silents for a while. I told him to take care of himself, and hope the best for him. Well, Best for him for real. God bless you.