Work has been slow which I don't really like. I can't be too bored, otherwise I would be thinking too much, worrying too much. Yeah, just like right now. I have been kind of waiting for the text back from Mr rabbit which he hasn't text me back yet. I don't know why he hasn't text me back yet. I don't want to think too deep about it. I am easy to put things in a bad way which I hope it won't be happen. I think I am in love with him that I don't want to say I do 'cause I am still afraid of a lot of things. He is a great person, I wish I could be with him for long time. I don't know if that will come true or not. Miss tiger always say that I have to be more positive which I don't believe that kind of shit anymore. Yes, I did being positive before, thought everything would be alright, would be ok. However, no shit happens. No matter how hard I tried, no shit happened. I was really sad about it. I can't put any hope on anything now. I lost a lot of trust on people, on this world, maybe on myself too.
I just wish to be happy which I have been since the day I met Mr rabbit. I really wish I could be like this. I don't want to be like before. Alone, tired, sad. I should go to bed now. It's getting late. I don't know what kind of dream I am gonna have tonight, but wish it will be a sweet dream.