I often feel Mr.Rabbit is far more mature than me or I can say that he has a much bigger heart than I do. It seems like no one's business really bother him, and he is happy about others' life even if he doesn't care or like that person.
How can I have a bigger heart like him does?
I thought the reason for me being unpleasant to others is that I am not satisfied with what I have or who I am. And it only development recently years. Were I like this before I was 27? I thought I was always happy and careless of others. I didn't have any envy or jealousy to others. Maybe I did have it all.
Something isn't right about my mind. Why I am not happy about myself? I often blame it to my work. I don't know if it's true or just an excuse that I found for myself. I want to dress pretty which I can't do at work. When I don't feel pretty, I don't seems to care about how people see me. But I don't like the way I see myself, as a dirty, stupid and ugly person.
I should just put my eyes on myself rather than others. And believe in what I believe, not be moved by others.