I wanted to updated my blog for Chinese New Year on the new year's eve, but couldn't have the mind and time to do it. This new year day came with many things and different emotions. Mr.Rabbit has been working over time since his company is moving. We couldn't really plan something for the new year. My best friend Miss Tiger went to Hawaii right before the new year, so I missed our tradition of having hot pot together.
And, we just found out my mom has a health problem which might be serious. The new year's phone call normally are happy phone calls. But because my mom's health issue, it become heavy to call my aunt and my grandmother. And even my grandparents from my dad's side were worried. I think for once, we all notice that how important my mom is for all of us. How much she has done for all of us. With her health issue, all of us are effected in different ways. Even though we don't know the test result yet, but we all worried.
I had to play a very strong role when I talk to my relatives in China. They are there with my mom, so they get direct effect. But I am far away, I don't feel the stress or pressure. I think it is good that I am away, so I can be the one who is inside of the group but out from the emotions which means I have to be strong for all of them. I cried few times to think about how little time that I have spend with my mom in my 33 years of life. But I told myself to stop being so negative 'cause it's not helping anyone. I put my faith in GOD and in karma. My mom has been a wonderful person. She has the good karma. I truly think my mom will be fine and this is a test that GOD gave to all of us and to let us realize how important and wonderful my mom has been for each one of us.
My new year's wish goes to my mom, and wish her the best. She is the best thing even happened to all of us! We all love her very much. And, I wish all my relatives the best too! It might be a hard year, but everything will be fine!!!!