I am having a terrible mood since yesterday. I have been watching Japanese drama while making paper stars and crying, all 3 things at same time. The drama talked about a couple had to be speared by the WWII, they met again after 50 years. That kind of thing might only happen at that ear, right? I blamed myself while crying that I couldn't do a thing like that. The paper stars are for Mr.Carrot, Christmas's gift. Maybe this is the last Christmas's gift. I know he will leave me. He will go back to Japan. I have such bad luck with love, meant to be alone. Crying is for the uncertain future, I am scared to death. Scared, scared, scared,scared....scared to death.