Miss tiger was telling me same thing too. She text me and asked me to admit that I do love Mr rabbit. Do I? Am I falling in love with him now? I remember I was telling him that I am holding back a little bit. His voice was kind of sad asked me really. I didn't know how to answer Yes, for some part, yes I am holding back. I don't trust him yet. I mean I do like him a lot. But can I trust him enough to give my heart 100 percent to? Can I trust him enough to release my worries to? Can i trust him enough to know that he will be by my side no matter what happen? No. I can't yet. I still need more time to know him, to learn to trust him, and to let him trust me and love me. It's almost 5 months of being together now. I am looking forward to being with him for long time. I do like him. Such a great guy that I think he will make a good husband and father. Then I start to thinking that can I be a good wife and mother? Do I still have the ability and power to be good enough? After all those stupid mistakes that I made, can one love me truly as who I am?
I have too many worries that he doesn't know about. I can't share with anyone yet 'cause I am afraid. I don't blame anyone for what happened or what is happening now. I know I am the reason for it. I just want myself and GOD to know that I learned my lesson and I am trying and praying the best for my future. I am a good person who got lost for couple years, but now I am back on track. I am a good person. Please let me have the love, let me have the happiness which I wished for.